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crap...
missing something valuable. although it is legally switched, i feel like regretful for selling it. huhu. i mish ya already. baru je 1/2 jam berpisah, ak dah jadi macam ni. huhu. memang mcm ni perasaan lpas berpisah dgn kereta2 yg byk berbakti. argh. rindu gile! wuwu.

before this pon....

miss both. byk kenangan.

All I have is this Feeling

Heard bout this quote before?....

"I shall be telling this with a sigh. Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I — I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference."

Sometimes I ask myself whether this 'road' is the one that I less traveled by. Technically, yes. But practically, unsure.

True, all i had is this feeling that is so unsure bout myself. My direction is led by others.

During these hard times, I think I dun understand myself well. I got mad by boss and felt nothing. No worries, no hard feelings, no effects. Weird aite? My heart stiff like kayu or besi. Maybe my personality affect much on my appearances. I'm not pretty and thin like other 'almost perfect' girl. Sometimes thinking bout that but who cares. I dun have boyfriend. Dun have much friend. I have a real humble and misery life. Like social life is not important. I can be called like 'kera sumbang'. Dun care so much bout it. Because that is what I am.

Like I said. WHO CARES?

Some other time I cried over these stupid things. Real stupid. Crying over past things that I felt so miserable. I should look forward from now on. Seeing others happy with their friends and family is seriously annoys me. Because that is somethng that I didn't get right now. Jealousy is my best friend and it's killing me. End up, I had my medical check-up one day and been diagnosed high blood pressure. What I felt is, this is what I get after suffering and drowning in my own world.

What a pity right? Lucky me, I have not lost my mind yet.

But, WHO CARES?


p/s: We always hate our life but there are people who want to live our live.

A Whole New World

Salam blog.

Akhirnya ada juga masa free nk update blog kan.

Ini pon sdg bekerja di hari cuti Awal Muharram pulak tuh. Aishh. Xpe. Boss x marah update blog. Sbb boss pon bapak sendirik. Keh3.

Sejak jadi workaholic ni mmg rasa x best kalau duduk rumah. Pegi keje lagi best. Almaklum lah org xde komitmen mane. Komitmen kat keje je. Keje dah jadi macam top list hobby plak. Ade ke gitu? Hobi ku bekerja. Hahahah. Dah xde masa nak wat menda laen. Dulu ade masa ade gak wat cross-stitch ke, maen dam ulor ke, mandi kucing ke. Skang no more. Kuceng pon dah 4 bulan x mandi. Keh3. mana taknya, balik umah cuma makan dgn tido je. Chores seme tunggang langgang. Bapak malasnye.

Isnin sampai Jumaat full day and Sabtu half day keje kat 'sana'. Sabtu half day lagi sampai Ahad keje kat 'sini'. Macam robot. Dulu Ahad part time ajar Maths. Dah abes PMR rasa lega aman tenteram sket. Dah xnk part time cikgu lah. Penat.

My new world

Now I enjoy and happy here. Segala tekanan kerja kat 'sana' aku lepaskan kat sini. Aku jadi PA tak bertauliah. Heheh. Aku leh cuci2 mata tgk keta2 kt sini. Hari biasa mengadap vessel dgn heat exchanger. dah puas ngadap menda tuh ngadap menda ni plak. Ni mcm nk promote jgak lah. Keta2 kat sini ok. Seronok mata memandang. Mana taknya, harga sebijik je nk byr bulan x padan dgn gaji ak keje. hohoh.

Ok seriously ni memang promotion lah kan. Hahahah. Ni 100% hasil kerja pertama gua kt tempat ni. Saje je lah nk post kan.

'A success story'

Not to forget. I also enjoy and proud to be here.

Drop by Asturi k.

And what can I say? I love working!! 'Sana best, sini pon best. hahaahh.. Mau sikit hari lagi aku gila. Keje je manjang. Bila nk dating nye. Oi2. Ak dating dgn keje lah.....

p/s: keje lah selagi ia mampu membuat anda bahagia. hohoh. peace.

Ditekan Kerja

Assalam..

Pheww.. It's been almost 3 months now. what is exactly I'm feeling right now. Fuh.. tertekan yg amat. ak rasa mcm x seronok sgt kerja... mungkin ni lah org kata dugaan dlm kerjaya. tekanan yg x habis2.

First month rasa cam seronok sgt2. Workaholic jugak. asek balik lmbt. tp lama2 mcm fed up gila. tu baru 3 bulan. hmm. mcm2 benda berlaku. hati x senang kdg2. buat itu takut salah, x buat pon salah jugak. jadi ape yg betulnya? mm entahlah..

harap2 ak leh sabar lagi dlm tahun ni.. tension!!

Kesyukuran ini....

uih3.. bersawang tahap bulu ketiak x penah cabot dah blog aku nih. hohoho. kotor betol description. wuh.. sejak jd bdak praktikal mmg x penah sentuh dah blog. apa jadi dgn aktiviti latihan industri 6 bulan pon x penah nk hapdate. hoho. bz kowt..

today is a very fast heart-beating day. this morning my friends and I went to the office to get signature for our appreciation certificate from dearest Dato. huhu. all of a sudden kene interview coz they want to hire 1 person. since we all da abes praktikal minggu lpas mmg this is a very good opportunity to grab. fikir punya fikir pros and cons to stay in this company mmg boleh buat pecah kepala. terima menyesal, nk tolak pon menyesal. huhuhuhu.. hati dah meronta2. org2 sekeliling asek nk takotkan2 ak. susah nk survive la gaji x naek la kene maki la. kalau ikot dgr ckp org sampai bila pon kita takot. tp tgh tgu nk interview td mmg berbelah bagi. nk accept ke x kalau dpt job nih?... keje ni mmg susah. lebih2 lg kene ade skil yg tertentu. but after that i thought, why not i try. lgpon mmg susah nk cr kerja skrg.......................

sudahlah Da, jgn nk pikir panjang lg. lgpon ni lah masanya I want to enhance my motivation. before this I only think about myself, selfish, sombong, x reti berdikari. but from now on I will prove to everybody, dgn umur yg semakin meningkat, ak xnk berada di takuk bawah lg, berada dalam dunia khayalan yg tidak berpijak di bumi yg nyata. from now on i have to manage myself and be a good employee.

Alhamdulillah, dgn limpah rahmat dan kurnia-Nya, ak akhirnya dpt kerja ni. mcm x percaya. ak xde perasaan langsong kowt. cepatnya semua ni berlaku. smpai nervous pon x smpat nk rasa. dlm masa satu hari, menda laen nk buat menda laen yg dpat. ptg dah dpt jwpan interview. Ya Allah. x duga sgt2. xtau perasaan apa masa tu. mcm kosong je. tp bersyukur proses nk dpt kerja ni mmg Allah permudahkan sgt. dgn pakaian x formal, otak x ready apa pon. main taram je nk ckp ape. mujur, Allah dah permudahkan jalan. bersyukur sgt2. walau kerja ni mmg mencabar tp x cuba x tahu. harap2 ak dpt hadapi segala rintangan yg bakal datang.................


p/s: jgn terlalu memilih kerja. kita semua ada hak. tp ikutlah kata hati. dan berdoalah pada-Nya. Insya-Allah rezeki ada untuk kita.

being loved.....and dumped!

serik.

one word dah cukup.

no need to sigh. plus, nobody knows. but thanks for the memories.

maybe i have a bad luck in love. but who cares? i don't care at all. i rather be alone than having somebody that needs my attention. no. i can't guarantee you that. end out, lets dump each other. not hating u but that's it.

bye!

i'm free....

rest in peace

Tom. Deceased. June 29, 2010-April 8, 2011.

uwwaaaa...hilang lg sekoq my precious. he's a lot bigger than in those. not a lot. little actually. ukhh..isk2.. i mish ya.